Happy without the father.....

I got knocked up within 4 months of meeting the father of my baby after not seeing each other for 7 years. Things started out great, the honeymoon phase I suppose, and now I have been staying with my best friend for a few weeks and I am much happier and can't explain why. The father and I still keep in touch, we go ut to eat sometimes and he is aware of all dr appointments. I feel like we are going to see things differently in how we raise this baby and its just going to make things more difficult. The other problem I am struggling with, is my family is on the other side of the country and I really want them to be apart of this, since its the first grandbaby. How do I talk to the father about my plans to want to go see my family and keep him in the loop on what is going on with his kid? Also (sorry) he continues to blame me for his drinking because I am not around so he claims he has nothing better to do!!! He doesn't work, I work 2 jobs and it's my fault for not being around and him drinking??? It's so frustrating. I don't want to hurt peoples feelings in this but I want to be with my family too. My parents think that it would be best if I moved home because I would have stability and people to rely on. Please give honest opinions. I need calrity and can't seem to find it.