I have met women for whom breastfeeding was a breeze, but for me, it was a complete nightmare. I am a petite woman with a large breasts that got huge once my milk came in. My baby couldn't latch on properly and when he did, it was terribly painful for me. I tried everything the LC told me to do, to no avail. My nipples bled all the time, and I started dreading nursing my child. I decided to pump (great idea, because I was able to completely empy my breasts in record time and make me feel a lot more comfortable). It worked until I had to return to work 6 weeks later.I am a teacher and we are not allowed to take breaks, let alone leave the classroom for pumping. I practically had to give up my lunchtime to spend the entire 20 minutes pumping in the bathroom. My mild supply decreased, and my LC told me to pump 8 times a day for 20 minutes (even if no milk came out) to rebuil my supply. I was so exhausted and cranky, that I had no energy to enjoy life or my son. To make matters worse, I started having symptoms of postpartum depression.After a long talk with my pediatrician, he convinced me that what my son needed was a happy, healthy mom. That resonated with me and decided to give up pumping. It took me a long time to forgive myself because I felt like I had let my son down. Eventually, I felt better, more rested and energized to spend time with my son. We are now closer than ever and he is a happy, healthy 2-year-old.I feel sad that so many moms demonize others who couldn't or didn't want to breastfeed. While it is true that some couldn't be bothered to try, it is hurtful when many assume I failed because "I didn't try hard enough".