This is my second pregnancy and boy is it starting out on the wrong foot. Im about 11 weeks along and I've gained 3lbs which my doctor is saying it's on the high side. [With my first pregnancy I lost 1lb a week until my third trimester...] I was on birth control when I got pregnant so realized fairly early that I was pregnant. I already had a plate of stress on the table due to my job and my husband and I's separation a few months previous to finding out I was pregnant. We were separated for a few months and decided to give it another shot. Even though things are better in our relationship, it's still rough. I work two jobs, and my husband just lost his, which means a third from me minus daycare and housecleaning [well, that's what I thought...] So I'm on a job hunt for another job while my husband does very little around the house [no matter how much I talk to him it doesn't seem to matter], also my husband has two other children [his youngest is 6 months younger than my daughter... I know, I know.....]
So, I had my first internal exam since I found out I was pregnant on Wednesday and yesterday I started spotting whereas since the ending of my period I haven't spotted once. On top of that my doctor was unable to find the heartbeat at the appointment, part of this I feel to be the fact that I am quite a bit overweight. Before I was pregnant I was on Prozac which helped my depression and my eating habits, making me lose weight thus giving me an extra boost of 'happiness' besides what the Prozac was doing. After being off the Prozac for a few weeks, low and behold I have my first Panic Attack, and they now occur every few days.
How do I deal with all of this stress? Is the spotting normal because it was my first internal, or should I be worried? [Ultrasound on Tuesday] How can I deal with my depression without taking any medications; how do I deal with the Panic Attacks? I'm afraid to really talk to my doctor about everything because I feel like a hypochondriac. I was told to go to a therapist but my insurance is a mess right now and, honestly, I don't have the time to go to a therapist. Someone, help, please?