"Malcolm is walking," I told my husband, Alex, when he arrived home from work one Friday evening. "And Joshua has both 'Mama' and 'Dada' down pat." Malcolm and Joshua are not our children; they're kids in our play group. Our child is Ezra, who at 13 months old was not walking or talking yet. "Do you think there's something wrong with him?" I asked Alex. "I don't know," he said. "Maybe. Maybe it was that table we refinished when you were pregnant. Maybe it was all the candy bars you ate."
While we commiserated, Ezra, a perfectly healthy little boy, stood at our knees, babbling, yanking board books off the coffee table and smiling as they hit the floor. He was being quite charming, but we were despondent. Our son, we were thinking, is last again.
We understood that Ezra's development fell squarely within the range of normal. He had done nothing to concern an expert. But that didn't stop us from worrying: Was he going to be last at everything his whole life? I couldn't help but feel anxiety about it.
Chances are you know just what I'm talking about. Waiting for that first babble or watching for that first step can turn otherwise relaxed parents -- even those who don't have a competitive bone in their bodies -- into handwringers who keep close tabs on how their tot stacks up against his peers. "Milestones can be millstones," says J. Kevin Nugent, Ph.D., director of the Brazelton Institute at Children's Hospital Boston "It's a terrible burden for parents." It's OK to occasionally wake up at 3 a.m. worrying if your baby will crawl (Isn't that a rite of motherhood?).
Looking for Guidance
When Eliza Thomas of Montpelier, Vermont, traveled to China to adopt her daughter, Amelia, she slipped a copy of the Denver Developmental Screening Test into her suitcase. A clinical tool used by child-development experts, it told her when babies typically smile, when they might roll over and talk -- and every other milestone you can imagine. Her pediatrician, who had given her the test for reference, cautioned her not to take it too seriously, especially because babies who spend their early months in orphanages tend to have delays at first. But Thomas, who was about to become a first-time mom, couldn't help herself.
"I didn't know anything about babies," she recalls. "And I had all these questions. Had my daughter been fed enough? Was she healthy? What was her genetic background?" In the face of all these unknowns, the new mom clung to the screening test. "There's something irresistible about numbers and charts," she notes.
At the orphanage where Thomas met her 5-month-old daughter, she encountered a sickly, underweight, unsmiling baby. "I cried a lot," she admits. "But my pediatrician told me to just hold her, that she probably hadn't gotten enough physical contact." It wasn't until Amelia was a toddler that Thomas relaxed. "I realized that even though Amelia might be behind her peers in walking and talking, she kept making progress, and that's what mattered," says Thomas. Today, Amelia's a boisterous, talkative kid with no delays, and Thomas is the one straining to keep up.
Thomas' story is typical of many new parents. Nugent's advice to them: Remember that reference books offer general guidelines, but every baby is different. Many first-time parents haven't been around many children, so they rarely see the full range of developmental differences.