"I'm bored," he says, yawning. "Can't wait to get this baby home."
The depression subsides after a few days. But it's quickly replaced by the frustrating challenge of breastfeeding, which for me turns out to be more painful than labor.
"You're a natural," says Keith, watching as our little Chase voraciously latches on like a tiny mako shark.
"No, he's a natural," I say. "I'm starving our baby."
When my milk fails to come in after the fifth day, I consult my ob-gyn, Chase's pediatrician, and even a lactation consultant. I follow the advice of keeping to a rigorous daily schedule of ten feedings, followed by expressing with the breast pump.
Still no luck, so we head back to the lactation consultant. At our meeting she asks a battery of questions, examines me, and watches our son feed. The she shakes her head and says gently, "I'm sorry, but breastfeeding isn't going to work for you. My advice is enjoy your baby."
Melina Gerosa Bellows is the editor-in-chief of National Geographic Kids. Keith Bellows is the editor-in-chief of National Geographic Traveler.