I am not much of a resolution maker usually. Unless you count the one I make every year, since high school: to exercise more (or at all) and eat healthy. As 2011 came to a close, I couldn’t help but think that this should be the year I actually make, and stick to, some resolutions. The big resolution I wanted to make is unfortunately not really in my control, so I thought long and hard about the resolutions I can make that I can control and here’s what I came up with.
1. Take a more proactive approach to my health. I’ve spent more months in 2011 being sick than being healthy (due to all the fertility drugs and treatments I’ve undergone since May), and it’s made me feel totally out of control, like I’ve given my body over to science. Preston now expects Mommy to be in bed—it’s so sad. “Mommy sick? Mommy bed?” So I resolve to do more research and seek whatever extra help I can to curb the horrible side effects I get from the drugs, and do everything in my power to not let this IVF process knock me down as hard as it did last year.
2. Spend more time with Preston, and do whatever I can to not let this other stuff get in the way of that. Though it’s not always in my control, I need to dig deep to find energy and strength underneath the migraines and other side effects, and remember: He is my life, and I am his. He is the happiest little boy, and I am so lucky to be his mom. I never lose sight of that, but sometimes it’s hard to be totally present for him when I’m sick—that’s something I cannot let happen this year, whatever it takes…
3. Do yoga. I have back problems, and carry more stress than someone my age should. If anyone needs yoga (and meditation), especially right now, it’s me. I’m doing it this year. Period!
4. De-clutter my house. Now that I’ll be working from home, and writing from home more, I need to get organized with my space, and it all starts with eliminating excess clutter. Anyone read The Happiness Project? I’ve been holding onto it for months because I wasn’t ready for it, but I think now is the perfect time to crack it open, and take action.
5. Count my blessings every day. I’ve always been an optimist, but these IVF drugs really f*** with your head. Now any time I’m not feeling well or get particularly blue, all I have to do is look at this video Jay shot of Preston the other day and it puts everything in perspective for me—I cry with laughter every time I see it. Those are the kinds of tears I hope to have more of this year.
Moms who've gone through IVF: Did you seek outside help for it, other than through your fertility doctors and nurses? I tried acupuncture but I kind of hated it…it was anything but relaxing. I’m willing to try it again though. I’d love to know what helped you get through this difficult process. I’m determined to conquer it, one way or another. So, here’s to better things for all of us in 2012. Happy New Year, and thanks for always tuning in and sharing your personal stories and helpful advice.