As of today, I've paid off one card. It was the one with the lowest balance, $120, but I'm proud. Baby steps.
It's also a victory because, since Razac and I split, I've been in a funk. I'm still in my apartment, but I've never been more exhausted in my life. With all that's going on, I try to keep myself in good spirits because I can't be sad and depressed around my kids.
Usually when I feel like this, I go out and SPEND SPEND SPEND, but things are a bit different now. I'm a little more restrained, especially when there are no credit cards with available credit to shop with.
And I'm not running from Gerry — quite the contrary. When I call him in my free time (which is limited), I don't get through to him. I seriously do want and need his help. I'm going to make it a priority to speak to him before this week is out. Regardless of what I'm going through, the world is still in motion. Sometimes I forget that.