I know I’ve been stressed out for a while. And I know my current living situation hasn’t been ideal. And I know there have been a few events in my life over the last few years that have been overwhelming emotionally. But until I went to an evaluative counseling session this past week, was told that I needed to look into being evaluated for mild PTSD, and that my current living situation would only continue to contribute to the problem, I didn’t “get” just how big a deal it all is. It’s well past time to take care of me.
Up until now, Derek has been wanting me to wait as long as possible to move – and for VERY good reasons. This week though we had a great conversation about the reality of waiting for me. I told him that not only will I not make it until August, but I’m considering what it looks like to shift my goal from June to April for move out. I just simply need a safe mental and emotional space for myself.
He was very supportive. He helped me walk backwards through the timeline and what it would look like. I’ve done the numbers and know that I can put aside about $3600 by the end of March. My biggest concern though has been how much moving – deposits, buying stuff I don’t have but really do need, and the move itself – would eat away at that savings. I don’t like it, but it might be the lesser of two evils. I know I’ll be getting a financial aide disbursement in April again of about $3000 that would replenish the savings, but I’d rather not deplete it that much in the first place.
Then, just yesterday, I received my taxes back from the accountant. I’ll be getting over $2500 back, combined state and federal!! There’s my moving expenses – and without having to tap into my savings!!
Now, I get to set about getting the necessities for my own household – dishes, silverware, towels, etc – on the income I currently have, start actively looking for a place of my own, and have the peace of mind to know I’ll be able to do it in a way that leaves me in a good place financially.
It’s all coming together now, and that feels really good!