I am 30 years old, I am dating an amazing guy who - in the future - would like to have children with me. But I feel insecure and scared, from getting pregnant to being a mom.
I have had menstruation problems since I first got it, I take birth control pills to regulate it and to help with the pain I used to get every single month. Once, I skipped a month and it was a mess - I even fainted. Therefore, I am terrified of stop taking the pills to start working on getting pregnant.
Also, I have worked as a nanny since I moved to the US (6 years ago) and with that experience, I believe it is A LOT of work, A LOT of responsibility and I don't feel I am ready emotionally or physically for all this.
Will I ever want to have babies and be a mom? Right now, I feel I don't want any at all. I compromised with my boyfriend and told him that maybe in 5 years I might be ready (he did not like this since he is 35 and he thinks that 40 is too old to be a dad, although he already has a son from his previous marriage). I am hoping I will change my mind, I want to make my boyfriend (and hopefully, future husband) happy. But then, I also have to think about my own happiness, right?
I don't know, I feel very insecure about all this. Any advise?
Thanks a lot!