As you know, I'm looking for a job. It’s really frustrating to look at! I had applied for a position that I thought would be great -- it was a coaching position with a company that works with college students. It didn’t work out.
Over the past few months, and as I’ve continued looking at the job market since, I’ve noticed that my job history really only fits into one place: admin work. Although I’ve done quite a bit more than that -- editing, writing, and even leadership work with a large organization -- all of that was as an entrepreneur, and putting it on my resume seems to be off-putting to potential employers. One of the key questions I was asked in my most recent job interviews was, “Do you really want this job? You’ve been self-employed for years.” It’s a catch-22.
I’m tired of the admin work. It would pay the bills, but it would also perpetuate the kind of life I’m trying to get out of -- the one that bores me, drains me and causes me to gain tons of weight from stress and office politics. I want to go to work every day and feel as if I’ve made a real contribution using the skills and talents I know I have, and I want to come home at the end of the day feeling good and looking forward to spending time with my kids. Stressed out and drained doesn’t leave much left over for anyone.
So, I’m looking at going back to school. I’ve been playing with the idea for over a year now, and the more I think about it, the more excited I get. I really believe now is the time. The jobs I’m most attracted to all require a Masters degree to even apply. I have a Bachelor’s.
I’m not terribly excited about taking on student loans, nor am I excited about the idea of putting off a place of my own for a while in order to get my degree. But delaying gratification in the short-term, I believe, will build a stronger foundation in the long term.